I made a big decision this week. I’ve committed to a 6-month mentorship program with an amazing teacher. This is going to be a journey into my inner medicine woman, and I feel simultaneously excited and scared for where this is going to lead. The next 6 months are designed to break me open and build me back up in the most beautiful ways in the end transforming me into one badass healer. Some of you might be thinking, why would you volunteer, and better yet pay for something like this?

Something shifted in me again after the eclipse. Being in NYC I was fortunate to experience the eclipse at like 90% coverage. At the time, it didn’t feel like much more than staring at something cool in a pair of sunglasses that while are designed to ensure you don’t go blind. If you ask me, they felt more like the glasses you get to watch a movie in 3D. Isn’t that appropriate? I felt like those glasses had me seeing into the 5D without me even realizing it. I sat on my back deck and as I watched the moon move over the sun I thought, well, science can be very cool. As the backyard got dark, I couldn’t help but think, where would I be the next time this happens? Would I have an opportunity to see something like this again? Chances are yes, I mean, I am only 40. Then, I dove further into my head and started thinking about life and where I’ve been and where I want to go in next.  

I know that I have been repeating certain cycles; things need to change again. I switched up my sessions that I offer clients thinking maybe I needed to shake things up with my business a bit but that didn’t do much for me. This year has felt like the sequel to 2023 in a lot of key events. It’s also part of the reason I haven’t written as much in this blog. Who wants to read the same thing repeatedly? So, I know it’s time to pivot again in a major way. I’ve been asking myself what I’m scared of this time around… and I find that it’s not my monsters. Instead, it’s my GREATNESS. We will spend all this time asking ourselves, “What if I don’t make it? What am I going to miss out on? What will I leave behind?” causing us to forget to ask the more exciting questions: “What if I DO make it? What do I stand to gain? Who will I meet?”  

Why do we do that to ourselves? If I truly believe the past is behind me, embracing it all through understanding it made me who I am today, why is it so hard to move on? Are humans addicted to drama and chaos? We crave peace and yet we’re drawn to frenetic energy like a trainwreck – you just can’t look away. I talk to friends and clients all the time, and this seems like an epidemic with people who are so beautiful, bright and talented and yet they dim themselves because they just refuse to acknowledge any of it in themselves. We’re nicer to complete strangers than we are to ourselves!  Insanity if you ask me.

This mentorship is so much more than me learning from a skilled medicine woman. It’s accountability for myself to embrace and step into my own greatness in ways I’ve only dreamed of. I feel like the last year has been me waiting to jump out of an airplane. I have the chute on, I’ve been standing at the door and every time I think about taking that leap, I find an excuse not to do it and I stay in the plane. I can continue to stay put OR I can take a running leap and just let it all go.

I’m going to leave you with something a friend sent to me the other day that really hit home:

Our Greatest Fear by Marianne Williamson

It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light nor our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

You were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people the permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

So, I just jumped out of the airplane, my friends. Now, it’s time to fly.  

Always love,

T